It's Like This For Me

This depression is seriously kicking my ass. I'm in a position now where I can fight it (kind of), but it's definitely making it hard for me to focus on more than one thing at a time. My eating, and by extension my weight, has definitely suffered. I don't like it--I feel uncomfortable and heavy. It sucks. It must change.

I think I'll feel quite a bit better after two of my major stressors are done with: my course, which I HAVE to finish in order to regain some semblance of sanity, and my yearly torture session, which will be over with by this time tomorrow (TMI? Sorry). Of course, my brother (and by extension, most likely my mother) will be coming back to Calgary soon. If anyone remembers my posts from years past about these two, you'll know what major levels of stress they inspire in me. *sigh* We talked about boundaries in my group therapy today. Yay! Maybe I'll be able to withstand them better this year.

Speaking of therapy, I think I'm going to bring up my food issues when I see the next psychiatrist (next month). I've always been either too skinny or overweight/obese. I can't seem to find that happy medium and just be "normal." Maybe he can help me with said food issues somehow. Can't hurt, right?

So ends my checking in. I know blogging helps me; I just don't know what to write about lately, since the food and exercise thing is not going well.

PS--I lasted a week and a half on the gluten-free thing. Heh.